a gloomy night :'c

this night is not the kind of night that i really want right now,. i should be happier each day starting from now.. my birthday is fast approaching! in less than a month i'll be turning 18,.. but, why don;t i feel like celebrating it at all?? well,. i'm not in a good mood right now, i feel like crying anytime this night.. this day is too gloomy,.. *sigh*

i'm really about to cry right now.............:'c